Homeschool anxiety

A friend and I were sitting in my homeschool room and having a good laugh.

“At what?” you may ask.  And I would be very glad if you did, as otherwise I wouldn’t be able to write this post.

You see, looking at a homeschooler’s bookshelves is very telling.  It becomes rather obvious, fairly quickly, where they are feeling insecure.

Now, I have two bookcases devoted to history, but each shelf is devoted to a particular “time period”.  (And then there’s the shelves devoted to reference material, Bible material, and geography material – all are “related” to history.)

On other bookcases, I have one shelf devoted to art / music, one for science, one for math, one for “extras” (economics, government, psychology, sociology.  . .).  I have a bookcase for literature — British, American, World, “early” literature (Curious George, Velveteen Rabbit) etc.

And then I have SHLEVES for reading and writing.  Good gravy, do I have shelves for reading and writing!  I even went through and culled a good portion of books from those sections when I re-did this room, and yet, I still have SHELVES!

Of those shelves, one of those is my “happy” shelf.  It’s the one shelf of stuff I know I’m happy with.  It contains Rod & Staff English, and aside from those books only contains the dictionary, thesaurus, and Little Brown Handbook.

Then, I have a shelf that consists of “ideas”.  Meaning, I know I don’t like the books, but there are some great ideas within them that I could easily use, (like writing assignments and such).

And then I have the shelves for reading. . .

BLECH!

Reading is not going well for us at all this year! 

In the last two years, I have tried a couple of different programs, and we are getting no-where.  I even tried overlapping programs.

Oh, and can I just say, here, that there is nothing more discouraging than to hear the praises of a program by people you greatly respect only to know that you’ve tried it and found it. . .”unhelpful”.

All are among the many that I have tried.  (Note: these aren’t all I’ve tried. . .)

Maybe it’s like potty training. . . it just happens when it happens. . .I don’t know.

Yesterday, I reached my “beyond discouraged” point.  Is anyone else familiar with this feeling?  When you are using a program and feeling discouraged, but you keep plodding along because you think surely something will click soon. . .and then, about a month after that you start reaching that REALLY discouraged point. . .and then, some time after that you reach the beyond discouraged point.

Please tell me that someone else is familiar with this feeling?!

So, I was combing my shelves last night.  I hit upon the McGuffey Readers.

I bought these for “nostalgia”.  My Grandma had come to visit us AGES ago (before children), and we went to a historic site that had an old school house on it’s premises.  And there was a McGuffey reader on one of the desks, and my Grandmother picked it up, and then recited something from inside!  Even she was shocked that she remembered it.

So, I bought the set (1836), just for nostalgia.

Today, a Saturday, I will be cracking the first book open for my little guys just to see how they take to it.  It won’t be for “school” — it’s for “nostalgia”.  So, they can see what Great Grandma did in school, and maybe how she had to do her lessons.

We shall see. . .

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On another note, Drew is doing exceedingly well in his college classes.

His last math test was a 125 out of 100 (she made one question a bonus).

His English scores are similarly high.

He was homeschooled!  So, I must have done something right.  Right?  I’m not a complete failure. . .

Or he’s just too stinking smart for his own good.

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