Me and My Big Fat Mouth

Someone asked me a question the other day,

“Where (or ‘how’) did you learn to do that?”

To which I think I responding something along the lines of. . .

Well, okay, I LIED.

Because if I were to be honest, my answer would be, for nearly every single circumstance, “I opened my big fat mouth.”

Please let it be known that said mouth opens wide without the okey-dokey of the brain upstairs.  In fact, I’m not even sure my neurons are fast enough to react to the speed at which my mouth will voice its thoughts.

And my boys are studying the human body this year, so I do realize how fast neurons transmit data. . .

My mouth has a tendency to say, “I can do that.”  My brain, at that instant, is so stunned at the audacity of the mouth not awaiting orders, that it goes on strike, so it is not until some time later that the brain decides to mentally chastise the mouth for opening up.  By then I’m stuck.  My mouth made a claim that I now have to make a reality.

That is the honest-to-goodness truth behind the where / how I learned to do anything such as power point, making videos, sewing (quilts & dresses), etc.

*sigh*

My brain is currently berating my blabber-mouth for saying, “Sure, I can do that.”  Except it seems to be holding a grudge this time and doesn’t want to play nice.

Now, I’m sitting here looking at this class I said I would create / teach, and I just want to run-away and hide.  Who would be insane enough to agree to this concept???

Oh, wait.  That would be me, and my big fat mouth.

Reading Choices

Okay, I admit it!

I am a HUGE sci-fi fan!

There, now you know.

It’s important that you know this, because, being an introvert, you would never see me at any of those conventions dressed up in a Xena costume. . .even if I could pull it off.  (Which, I don’t think I could.)

Actually, that’s not why. . .

I love sci-fi because of stories that can be told, discussed and handled. . .and no one gets offended.

Number one topic, I think, that gets discussed in sci-fi — RELIGION.  Customs, societal norms, mores. . .all that too and no one gets offended!

How amazingly awesome!

It’s like an open invitation to use your brain and think about issues that you daren’t discuss in public.  I love that!  The freedom to express an opinion without reprocussions, without looks. . .

This book series I’m currently reading has the ”Wizard’s First Rule”.

Essentially, it says people will believe what they are already primed for, not necessarily what is fact.

For example, in our world, a girl misses her menses, she’s had sex, and someone tells her she is pregnant.  The chances that she’ll believe it to be true are incredibly high even if you haven’t offered her a grain of proof, and there is a high likelihood that she will then begin behaving according to her physical status.

That was an oversimplified example.

Here’s another one:

You move to a new area and are in search for a church.  Do you pick a church that is the “truth”?  Or do you pick one that you are already comfortable with?  One that aligns with your principles?

Of course, that idea is “sticky”.  If you already have a belief system then you, of course, believe your system is the “truth”.

But, I had asked myself that question (or something similar) a little over a year ago.  And, regretfully, I found my answer was something along the lines of I was searching for “my” god; rather than the “true” God.  As in I had the box all prepared, I just wanted to stuff Him in there so I could add the bow.

See, I can have these conversations with myself without getting offended. . .a little miffed at my stupidity perhaps, but not offended.

That was the end of my church hunt.

In ways I miss a “church family”.  However, I am grateful, because I have had a chance to grow.  I have had the opportunity to ask questions that I would never, ever, (as in never in a million years) ask in a church setting, and discover the answers.  I find myself saddened that churches tend to “discourage” questions.  Not that I’ve ever heard, “don’t ask”.  However, one never wants to appear stupid; and the idea of questioning God in church. . . well, that just doesn’t fly.

I’m also fortunate to be surrounded by a number of knowledgeable others; one of whom I can freely ask questions of and he doesn’t seem to mind.  Others, I can listen to, each of them adding something everytime I hear them.

This has been bothering me of late.  People still always ask what church we attend, and somehow that makes me uncomfortable, like, by not being affiliated with a church it means we aren’t believers.

Yet, I know my faith; and I attend a “church” of one.

Laced with Good Will

Yesterday, I managed to be highly productive!  The boys and I went through all their clothes in storage and went from having 7 bins, down to having merely 2.5!    Better news?  I only need to buy 1 pair of pants for my youngest!  :)

And I have an entire bin of too small clothes ready to dump off at the Goodwill.

I also did a ton of laundry, as I can’t just take something from the bins and put them in the drawer, anymore than I can buy something off the rack and wear it without washing it first.

But, I also did something else. . .

I threw away my wedding gown!

Yes, indeedy, I did!

Maybe “wedding gown” isn’t appropriate terminology.  I threw away the dress that I had sewn for my 10th anniversary renewal of vows.  Because my husband and I had eloped 10 years prior our renewal of vows was more “wedding” like than our actual “wedding”.

Here’s the dress:

And, before anyone blows a complete gasket, I did truly give it some serious thought before I chucked it.

  • I can still fit into it (though breathing may be a slight issue)
  • I still find it beautiful
  • I will certainly never be wearing it again
  • I have absolutely no one to pass it down to (and, in considering what a friend had said:)
  • I don’t truly believe anyone would want someone else’s dress for THEIR wedding.  (want over need in this instance)

People we know now are always laughing when we talk about our kitchen remodel, for they find it funny / odd that the entire design was worked around wall tile that I fell in love with.

Well, the same goes with this dress. . .for I fell in love with the lace, so I had to work the dress around the lace (shown here).

You barely even see the lace in the photos, but that was the part of the dress I loved the best.

It was the part with the most meaning, and not only for its beauty but also because my Mom, and my Grandmother sat around the table with me hand stitching it into place.  We sat and chatted, and joked, and moaned. . .And that made the lace even more special!

It would have been really cool if I had a picture of us sitting around the table sewing the lace on; however, the family photographer (me) had her hands tied.

So, I sat down last night and removed every single bit of lace from that dress!

The dress is in the trash can, but the lace is saved. . .

Who knows, maybe a future daughter-in-law will find a dress that she loves, but may wish for a bit of lace?

(But, if no one does, it takes up so much less room than the complete dress!)