It’s that time of year.
The fact that this happens EVERY year should, in my mind, somewhat diminish the reality; yet, that has never happened.
The start of the new “school year” is upon us, and I have hit total “freak out” mode.
I am NOT ready!
What was I ever thinking!
I am no-where near “good enough”.
And on and on.
Honestly, I think I would happily run-away, if I could only figure out where to run to. But, that would require time, research, and funds; and if I’m going to use those resources it only makes sense that I use them toward the application of what I had chosen to do in the first place.
My head is killing me and I just remembered one of my students wants to learn the clarinet, another the BAGPIPE.
Oh gosh. And then they will both be studying Spanish, and I haven’t liked anything I’ve seen on the market, so I had started pulling things together on my own. (Was that back in April? Did I come up with a plan? Did I write anything down? OH good gravy!)
That’s not even counting the super easy stuff like:
- Do I have enough paper?
- Pencils? Where did all the erasers go?
- Why is it every pen in my house is missing its lid?
- Can I find my bookcases?
Actually the answer to the last question is NO! I can’t find my bookcases, because I had pulled off the books to try to organize at some point towards the beginning of summer and got sidetracked. So all I can tell you is that behind all those stacks of books the bookcases exist.
Egads, if those books are in piles then how will I find the ones we need???! Wait. Do I know which ones we need??? I had a list! Where oh where is my list!?
I think I’m coming down with a rash. It’s probably got some awful acronym to go with it, like “HAGS” ( for Homeschool mom’s Acute Guilt Syndrome).
MATH! Oh my goodness, did I make a plan for math? Oh, I did. That’s right. I did. Aw man, where are the math books???
Paper bags. Paper bags are used to help with hyperventilation, right? I think I saw that in a movie somewhere. I have paper bags. Wait. I only have 12. I have 12 students in one of my classes. Are we using paper bags in that class? I can’t remember!
Breathe. Adapt. Overcome. Repeat.
Ah forget it! Someone else can do without a paper bag!